Insanely Awe-dical

...to use today's revelation and my internal perseverance to reach my goal.

Focus and clarity can steady the blurred image.

Any given day, I will accomplish something to push myself towards either
A. a more solid and stronger career
B. a healthier body
C. a more complete character

For example:
A. display an high level of work ethic and positive energy at work; any sort of studying towards my eventual certification
B. Eat more vegetables, count how much I chew, go to the gym; make a solid conscious effort to eat better or less or work out; get a full nights rest
C. read books, play guitar, learn more about real things.

Wish me luck.

Where do I place my heart?

Today's picture came when I googled "Hold on to the heart that guides you" a line from a Starting Line song that has recently gripped me. Hauntingly soulful (yet simple) piano accompanies the yearning words the singer releases.

Sometimes I want to write here every day.

Sometimes I want to practice guitar every day.

Sometimes I want to level up my character in World of Warcraft (or start playing City of Heroes/Villians).

Sometimes I want to learn to rollerblade again.

Sometimes I want to learn more computer science.

Sometimes I want to learn how to make drinks.

Sometimes I want to read more every day.

Some of these are simply ideas that cross my head for a moment, but others are lingering thoughts that I've wanted to focus and continue.

My previous years resolution hasn't come to pass, and I'm tempted to force feed the rest of it in the last 5 weeks of 2005. It's not that it is due by 2006 -- it's more of a forcing of a deadline.

The biggest comment is "Why wait until the end of the year? Why create this fake starting/ending point"

Random thoughts are flurrying, but I just want to know where to put my dedication. Perhaps I need to focus on my LIFE. On Kate ("the one that matters..."), my future career, and my health. Perhaps just some time playing tennis/gym/recreation is all the hobby I can sustain. What with my love and my work being the rest of my life at this point. 114 hours this last pay check = 57 hours a week.