Thursday, November 13, 2008
Major Steps
I watched Psycho when I was a lot younger - in the Theater for Joseph Guzman's birthday. I remember going to AMC Theaters after Driver's Education, so this puts me around 15-16 years old - pretty much in the middle of puberty and my manliness had been developing at an unprecedented level.
It was the remake of Psycho, starring Vince Vaughn as Norman Bates. I didn't know Vince Vaughn would soon be the excellent talker Trent Walker from Swingers - a personality I would eventually adore and emulate to some degree.
Anyways, the movie scared the crap out of me. The music, the tension, the suspense. Of course, the iconic shower stabbing scene was burned in my memory, effectivly scaring me from showering with shower curtains (luckily my bathroom at the time had a door, which I felt was more secure for some odd reason).
Since then I have been terrified of scary movies, and have adamantly put my foot down in refusal to watch them. Sometime later I would go see End of Days, which is, by comparison a really horrible movie, but I would leave the theater prematurely and sit outside until it was done - something I have never done prior or since.
My imagination runs wild in scary movies, and it paralyzes me at night, surrounded by silence. I try to stay strong, but it was difficult to be strong against what my mind imagined.
I told myself that I would beat this thing, and I have told Kate in the past that I wouldn't mind watching Scream and various horror movies with her - in an attempt to stay strong and be a real man. She never called me on it or pushed me to do it - something I really adored about her. She must have known that it was something that really was not something I wanted to do.
Fast forward to now - I'm approaching my 26th birthday, which makes it roughly 10 years since my first viewing of Psycho. I told Kate that I felt like facing my fear and had agreed to watch scary movies with her, in fact, suggesting some movies I wouldn't mind watching.
Yesterday, I watched the Hitchcock original of Psycho on AMC, and while the murder scenes were scary, I expected them all and was able to watch it and appreciate it from beginning to end. That was followed by watching the Descent, another horror-type movie. I had my jumpy moments but i survived.
I played Resident Evil 2 in high school and loved it. It was highly regarded as an A+ title and I beat it from beginning to end. However, I did beat it using a strategy guide, while I played it during the day, with the sound off and the radio on. I hope to play great games like Bioshock, Dead Space, and Resident Evil 4 without resorting to those mechanisms and enjoy those A+ titles the way it was intended - dark, frighteningly gripping edge-of-your-seat exciting titles.
It was the remake of Psycho, starring Vince Vaughn as Norman Bates. I didn't know Vince Vaughn would soon be the excellent talker Trent Walker from Swingers - a personality I would eventually adore and emulate to some degree.
Anyways, the movie scared the crap out of me. The music, the tension, the suspense. Of course, the iconic shower stabbing scene was burned in my memory, effectivly scaring me from showering with shower curtains (luckily my bathroom at the time had a door, which I felt was more secure for some odd reason).
Since then I have been terrified of scary movies, and have adamantly put my foot down in refusal to watch them. Sometime later I would go see End of Days, which is, by comparison a really horrible movie, but I would leave the theater prematurely and sit outside until it was done - something I have never done prior or since.
My imagination runs wild in scary movies, and it paralyzes me at night, surrounded by silence. I try to stay strong, but it was difficult to be strong against what my mind imagined.
I told myself that I would beat this thing, and I have told Kate in the past that I wouldn't mind watching Scream and various horror movies with her - in an attempt to stay strong and be a real man. She never called me on it or pushed me to do it - something I really adored about her. She must have known that it was something that really was not something I wanted to do.
Fast forward to now - I'm approaching my 26th birthday, which makes it roughly 10 years since my first viewing of Psycho. I told Kate that I felt like facing my fear and had agreed to watch scary movies with her, in fact, suggesting some movies I wouldn't mind watching.
Yesterday, I watched the Hitchcock original of Psycho on AMC, and while the murder scenes were scary, I expected them all and was able to watch it and appreciate it from beginning to end. That was followed by watching the Descent, another horror-type movie. I had my jumpy moments but i survived.
I played Resident Evil 2 in high school and loved it. It was highly regarded as an A+ title and I beat it from beginning to end. However, I did beat it using a strategy guide, while I played it during the day, with the sound off and the radio on. I hope to play great games like Bioshock, Dead Space, and Resident Evil 4 without resorting to those mechanisms and enjoy those A+ titles the way it was intended - dark, frighteningly gripping edge-of-your-seat exciting titles.
Comments:
Well well! I remember the time Kate, Bernadette, Brian Reyes, and I were at your house watching the Exorcist. I guess conquering a fear of movies is like conquering a fear of dogs. Awesome to hear man!
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